YOU have ceased to exist. Don’t have to pretend friendliness when you know that bitchiness is emerging little by little. So screw you and your ‘niceness’.
I have erased you from my life so I can stay in my world where the sun is forever shining.
So let’s just fuck off fr each other’s life from now on so we both can be delusional.

Everytime I think of you
I get a shot right thru into a bolt of blue
It’s no problem of mine but it’s a problem I find
Living a life that I can’t leave behind
There’s no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won’t set you free
But that’s the way that it goes
And it’s what nobody knows
And everyday my confusion grows…

Whenever hope feels so far away
Whenever the sadness becomes too overwhelming
This song by Hijjaz has never failed to inject positivity back into life to revive the feeling that everything happens for a reason that is beyond practical reasoning at times…call it blind faith if you must but the religion that I am born into is the one thing that has been stopping me from…and is keeping me strong most of the time…well on top of thinking of all the sacrifices that everyone has made to put me where I am…

I apologise for the fact that I have no time to translate the lyrics.

Lukisan Alam

Hidup tidak selalunya indah
Langit tak selalu cerah
Suram malam tak berbintang
Itulah lukisan alam
Begitulah aturan Tuhan

Jadilah rumput nan lemah lembut
tak luruh dipukul ribut
Bagai karang didasar lautan
Tak terusik dilanda badai

Dalam sukar… hitunglah kesyukuranmu
Dalam senang… awasi kealpaanmu
Setitis derita melanda
Segunung KurniaanNya

Usah mengharapkan kesenangan
Dalam perjuangan perlu pengorbanan
Usah dendam berpanjangan
Maafkan kesalahan insan

Dalam diam… taburkanlah baktimu
Dalam tenang… buangkanlah amarahmu
Suburkanlah sifat sabar
Dalam jiwamu itu
Di dalam jiwamu itu

Where did I go wrong?
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life…

hate stupid public hospitals
hate doctors who know not the meaning of COMPASSION
hate them all

Am agreeing with my 13 years old brother that…

My Chemical Romance rocks!
I love!love!love! their lyrics

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Burning on, just like the match you strike to incinerate…
The lives
Of everyone you know
And what’s the worst you take?
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stake

Well, I’ve been holding on tonight

What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are,
The very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst you take?
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stake
Well, I’ve been holding on tonight

What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

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Now I know

That I can’t make you stay

But where’s your heart

But where’s your heart

But where’s your…

And I know

There’s nothing I can say

To change that part

To change that part

To change!

So many

Bright lights that cast a shadow

But can I speak?

Well is it hard understanding

I’m incomplete

A life that’s so demanding

I get so weak

A love that’s so demanding

I can’t speak

I am not afraid to keep on living

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey if you stay

I’ll be forgiven

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see

My eyes are shining bright

Cause I’m out here

On the other side

Of a jet black

Hotel mirror

And I’m so weak

is it hard understanding

I’m incomplete

A love that’s so demanding

I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey if you stay

I’ll be forgiven

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me

These bright lights have always blinded me

I say…

I see you lying next to me

With words I thought I’d never speak

Awake and unafraid

Asleep or dead

Cause I see you lying next to me

With words I thought I’d never speak

Awake and unafraid

Asleep or dead

Cause I see you lying next to me

With words I thought I’d never speak

Awake and unafraid

Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey if you stay

I’ll be forgiven

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

once you go black, you never go back…heh

GO LIONS!

GO CAPTAIN AIDE!

heh