OH! For the love of God!!
Something is wrong somewhere.
The fear is back. Heart feels unsettled.Very, very unsettled.
The dream made me got up a few times. Recurring.
This feeling makes me want to give up.
But I’ve been told to fight for what I WANT.
Is it all worth it?
I have to fight for far too many things already…
Should I add one more to my list?
I don’t want to do it anymore but seems that I might have to for one more time. Again.
Because deep down inside…I know that it is worth everything I am willing to give.
But I need to strengthen myself emotionally and mentally.
This time out in Singapore is giving me just what I need.
STRENGTH
Once upon a time, I ALWAYS get whatever I WANT. No matter how hard. Then I learned that one can never get everything that one desires. And I lost the fighting spirit. Unfortunately, it is back. The fighting spirit. I will fight for EVERYTHING that is WORTH fighting for…
I am not giving up without giving every last bit of energy that I have even if it kills me. You hear me? I am not giving up. I am not giving up without putting up a fight.
I have nothing to lose so don’t mess around with me…Geddit?
