Somethin’ to feed da B.O.R.E.D.O.M

after a month…almost…

the monsoon season
the late nights
the disturbed and deprived sleeps
the consistent worries
the self-declared territorial war

have all contributed to the breakdown of the immune system
and on the eve of Hari Raya Haji and the family holiday to Malaysia…gah!

shall try to tone down on everything…actually…have to…cos too much fun is not good for anyone…
have been feeling so angry lately…particularly eversince the territory kept being invaded…so nonsensical…whatever…I don’t want to ruin my eid by thinking about idiots…so…

Just wanna say a Happy Hari Raya Haji to all the Muslim brothers and sisters especially to the ones whom I’ve spent the past Eids with in Hobart…
The memories I’ve had with all the different individuals I’ve met there can never be traded with anything else. You guys/gals had been my family when I was so far away from home. And although I am back with the loved ones for this Eid, you people are never forgotten…Love you people!!!

BILA YANG TERTULIS UNTUK KU
ADALAH YANG TERBAIK UNTUK MU

And this time the meaning is far from poignant…people can be so ignorant sometimes that I feel like whacking their heads with a cricket bat. sigh.

sigh…
5 more weeks to go…at least…

Baby, seems like everywhere I go
I see you, from your eyes, your smile
It’s like I breathe you, helplessly I reminisce
Don’t want to compare nobody to you

Boy, I try to catch myself
But I’m out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can’t let it go

Know that I can’t get over you
Cos everything I see is you
And I don’t want no substitute
Baby, I swear it’s deja vu

Seeing things that I know can’t be
Am I dreaming?
When I saw you walking past me
Almost called your name
Got a better glimpse and then I looked away
IT’S LIKE I’M LOSING IT

Baby, I can’t go anywhere
Without thinking that you are there
Seems like you are everywhere, it’s true
Gotta be having deja vu
Cause in my mind, I WANT YOU HERE
GET ON THE NEXT PLANE I DON’T CARE
IS IT BECAUSE I’M MISSING YOU that I am having deja vu?

hobart…hobart…hobart…

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu

karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu

oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh

aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu


tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati

oh bayangmu seakan-akan

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku

yg memanggil rinduku padamu

seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang

tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang

dan sepi, dan sepi

felt so much better after talking to you. thank you.
(although the murderous intent is still there.heh.)

Me misssh you:(

Something is wrong somewhere.
The fear is back. Heart feels unsettled.Very, very unsettled.
The dream made me got up a few times. Recurring.
This feeling makes me want to give up.
But I’ve been told to fight for what I WANT.
Is it all worth it?
I have to fight for far too many things already…
Should I add one more to my list?

I don’t want to do it anymore but seems that I might have to for one more time. Again.

Because deep down inside…I know that it is worth everything I am willing to give.
But I need to strengthen myself emotionally and mentally.
This time out in Singapore is giving me just what I need.
STRENGTH

Once upon a time, I ALWAYS get whatever I WANT. No matter how hard. Then I learned that one can never get everything that one desires. And I lost the fighting spirit. Unfortunately, it is back. The fighting spirit. I will fight for EVERYTHING that is WORTH fighting for…

I am not giving up without giving every last bit of energy that I have even if it kills me. You hear me? I am not giving up. I am not giving up without putting up a fight.
I have nothing to lose so don’t mess around with me…Geddit?

I’m sorry that you seemed to be confused…
Why do you do the things you do?
You keep on acting like a fool…
What we have you can’t take
From the truth you can’t escape…
When will you get the picture?
YOU ARE THE PAST IN MY FUTURE…
You need to give it up
Had about enough
It’s not hard to see..

Overcame by protectiveness and jealousy
Feel like territorial pissing needed to be done
Sigh…

on a lighter note…

Wishing all the Christian pals a very Merry Christmas:)
Have a happy,happy hols y’all!:P

it is barely a month…uurgghh

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know
 
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us

Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know
 

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started
I’m chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I’m lacking
Completely incomplete
I’ll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all Ive held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m tapping into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Theres nothing else to lose
Theres nothing else to find
Theres nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else…

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And its me you need to show

How deep is your love
I really need to learn
cause we’re living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
WHEN THEY ALL SHOULD LET US BE
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
Youre the light in my deepest darkest hour
Youre my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And its me you need to show
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE?

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go Insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn’t stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever?

…Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you…

I took for granted all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can’t get near you now

Oh can’t you see it baby
You got me going crazy

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end  if I’m with you
I’ll take the chance…

There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard, No song that I could sing But I can try for your heart, Our dreams, and they are made out of real things, Like a shoebox of photographs, With sepiatone loving,Love is the answer At least for most of the questions in my heart ,Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard? It's not always easy,And sometimes life can be deceiving, I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together 

MMM, it's always better when we're together Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together 

And all of these moments Just might find their way into my dreams tonight But I know that they'll be gone, When the morning light sings And brings new things,But tomorrow night you see That they'll be gone too, Too many things I have to do, But if all of these dreams might find their way Into my day to day scene I'll be under the impression, I was somewhere in-between With only two, Just me and you Not so many things we got to do, Or places we got to be We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together MMM, We're somewhere in-between together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together 

Mmmmm Mmmmm Mmmmm I believe in memories They look so, so pretty when I sleep Hey now, and when, and when I wake up, You look so pretty sleeping next to me But there is not enough time, And there is no, no song I could sing And there is no combination of words I could say But I will still tell you one thing, We're better together