Somethin’ to feed da B.O.R.E.D.O.M

With another 8 episodes of Naruto downloaded and waiting to be watched before my bedtime, the last 3 assignments which are far from done and heaps of revisions sittin on my desk, I decided to take a break and type this up…heh…
After letting the pent up frustrations out, I felt much better and the past two days were spent in the quiet tranquility of my room on my bed watching anime and desperately trying to finish up all the assignments. Some things that happen are just unfair but guess I just have suck it all in…or as what I’ve said in the previous entry…flush the crap out of my system…bwahaha…
I know that I am probably a lil’ too old to be watching anime and I bet there will be some out there who would violently disagree..hehe…but I’ve learned a lil’ valuable lessons…well…maybe not learned but they serve to remind me that revenge is futile…
"There’s nothing left but emptiness after the revenge is carried out"
The deep hatred and resentment that I carry will only lead to my own destruction…I am not about to sprout ‘make love not war’ nonsense…sheesh…i will still retaliate if i am attacked…basic human instinct…i will not smile and give my other cheek if i am slapped…geddit?
Anyway, what I am trying to say is that, I am human and I am not perfect but I have acknowledged all these flaws and am trying to make myself a better human being, daughter, sister and friend. However, sometimes I get sidetracked from my focus and goals when unwanted events occur and these events evokes the deeply embedded feelings of…well…hatred and vengeance.
As I’ve said…I’m only human…I’m sorry.
All I want right now, is to finish up what I’ve started so I can be back with people who matter most to me as soon as possible while ENJOYING my LAST year in beautiful, beautiful Tasmania without much annoying disturbances.

P.S: Can someone get me real life Hatake Kakashi? I am so obsessed with him…

Not a big deal…just another crap that needs to be flush down as soon as possible…

The journey in fantasy world will be smooth sailing till the very end

NO ONE IS TAKING IT AWAY…NO ONE…

slowly consumed by feelings bubbling below the surface begging to be released…

in the end…’V’ is for…

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Kini ku hanya ingin lupakan semua…

Kan ku hapuskan airmata hingga ku dapat sembuhkan luka…

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Akhirnya usai sudah semua

Ku dapat tertawa bahagia

Slalu tampak indah awalnya

Berakhir bencana

Selamat tinggal sayang

Bila umurku panjang kelak ku kan datang untuk buktikan

Satu balaskan kau jelang

Jangan menangis sayang

Ku ingin kau rasakan pahitnya terbuang sia-sia

Memang kau pantas dapatkan

20 mins to 10pm…sigh…then I will be heading off home to my beloved Naruto…

3 more damn assignments to do and exams…aarghhh!!

I am so looking forward to 9th June…2 more weeks…yay! If only they can stay here longer…till my exams are done on the 26th June so that they will be able to motivate me…hahaha

Anyway….

I have been taught to face up to my mistakes…and live with it…

The bad past often leave us with scabs and eventually scars that might or might not disappear…Pick on that scab and it will bleed again…

I have never backed down from a fight…I have scars to prove that…but I try to avoid them if I can…not because I am a coward…but because I do not like to hurt people intentionally

I am trying to rebuild my life to my idea of perfection…ruin it and the person will pay dearly…

damn…I am in such a bad mood…

This is it………………………………………………Dingin malam tirai kenanganku Menyerlahkan sekurun ingatan Terciptalah rimba kehidupan Percintaan dalam perjuangan Kesetiaan sebagai bekalan
Bisikan mu penuh pengharapan
Tiada garis dapat memisahkan
Segalanya kudratMu TuhanAlam bagai mengerti
Segala yang terjadi
Embun menitis panas simpati
Pertemuan tiada awal akhirPerutusan berdarah ku terima
Gugur kuntum di tengah halaman
Medan ini kurasakan sepi
Tercipta piluKu semaikan pepohon kemboja
Yang bunganya adalah hatiku
Semadilah dalam kedamaian
Semangatku tetap bersamamuKan ku usung oh jenazah cinta
Semadikan nisan kasih suci
Semangatmu tetap bersamaku
Selama pastiDebu malam meragut kenanganku
Menyedarkan dari lamunanku
Percintaan dalam perjuangan
Kau abadi Srikandi Cintaku…………………………………………Amen

Okay…
Amidst all the pile up crap and migranes…I have started a new addiction…
Not coffee…
Not drugs…
Not ….

it’s Japanese anime!
hahahahaha

In three days, I have completed episodes 1 till 20 of Naruto…
I guess I am sick and tired of reality which is why this obsession is a good and healthy way of staying away from nonsensical stuffs that is going on around here…
I am sick of dramas…sick…sick…sick…

back to the topic of anime…

A good friend had been trying to influence me for ages and I eventually succumbed to it after reading a story that she wrote…and now I am officially sucked into the fantasy world of cute little ninjas…hehe…but I am going to start limiting myself to three episodes a day now…

I can’t think of anything argumentative to blog about now…I have lost the passion to bitch…hahaha…yeah right

Well…better be doing something more productive than this…

P.S: I can’t hardly wait for my darlings to come next month…yay!!

‘Hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption

Winding in, Winding out

Shine of it has caught my eye and roped me in

So mesmerising, and so hypnotising…

So clear

Like the diamond in your ring

Cut to mirror your intention

Oversized and overwhelmed

The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me so isolated, so motivated

I am certain now that I am

Vindicated

I am selfish, I am wrong

I am right, I swear I am right

Swear I knew it all along

And I am FLAWED but I am cleaning up so well

I am seeing in me now

The things you swore you saw yourself’