Somethin’ to feed da B.O.R.E.D.O.M

Had been watching the tv series, ‘Friends’ eversince it was first aired when I was 13…right until its finale, 10 years later. In between this 10 years, I have met  a few individuals who have created such an impact in my life that it would be really hard to forget them…insya-allah…

I remember the jokes that we had about how our group resembling ‘Friends’ (I still refuse to admit that I am like Phoebe…Never! I am NOT blonde!) This is actually a very difficult entry for me to write because it brought back so much memories and emotions. In fact, I had written it a couple of days ago and deleted it again. We had been so close and no one had anticipated the break-ups. I guess being so far away helps me to see the bigger picture. It is inevitable. We are all growing up and growing out of our childhood and teenhood ideals. I had been pretty upset recently when I found out that one of my bestmate in Singapore is planning to get engage soon and he does not know how to tell me. I got angry. And then I got sad. Distance wrecks relationships and friendships. But only if you let it. However, no matter how much I keep telling myself that it is a small matter, I still feel rather hurt by that action. One small action brought back a myriad of memories.

I left Singapore…to further my studies, to experience life abroad…to run away…Running away everytime problems arise has been my hobby…but not anymore…Confrontation is not always bad…I love  you guys but we got to STOP hurting each other. If we are as close as we always claim to be, why do we always need a third party to relay certain messages? Why do we pretend that everything is fine and then turn to another person to tell them that it is actually not? Why can’t we just say how we feel eventhough it is going to be painful but it is for the good of everybody?

All I can say  for now is that each of us are moving towards a different direction. Watching the videos that a friend had posted in his blog made me reminisce about all the good times I had with the ‘Super-Six’. But for now, each of us has our own responsibilities to fulfill and our own life to lead. My time in ‘fantasyland’ is almost up. Insya-allah we will meet again.

Congratulations on the upcoming engagement. I am really happy for you both and I wish that I can be there.

My new addiction…scorched peanuts…homebrand scorched peanuts…lol…it keeps me awake and my mouth busy…

i just realised something…certain things have ceased to affect me so much as I have realised the importance of other stuffs… and there is definitely more to life than just what is infront of you. Learning to say no and learning to walk away unaffected from alot of situations are some of the tests that I have passed recently *smiles*

What I really need to pass though are 1) My summer unit    2)My next 2 semesters

which means…

Stop crapping and get yer arse back to work!

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Bacause of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt (anymore)
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid…
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt (again)
Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don’t know how let anyone else in (what a shame…)
Because of you I am ashamed of my life because it’s empty (for now)            
Because of you I am afraid…

sigh

I can’r seem to stop yawwwnnninggg….sigh…
Been such a hectic week and I am really glad that I went for that short trip to Burnie now…Thank god, it is the weekend…

This is summer has been much more productive than the last but the UV rays are bloody killing me…4 months of bleaching my skin during winter and spring has gone to waste now…I am still the same…The sun hater…lol…but really…the rays here are terrible…thanks to the hole in the ozone layer, Tassie and Antartica are the main victims…sigh…

Oh yeah…I was not intending to bitch about that…lol

I am P.R.O.U.D of you and I know I am not the only one
Too bad you didn’t get the sms, either Optus screwed up or your mobile needs to be chucked into the fire…hehe
What I wanted to say was…
‘Congratulations on your graduation little biatch.’
and congratulations on being the only firewoman in your cohort and the only firewoman in your current station now. Kick all the guys’ arses!!

She seems so much more matured now…It is so scary…something feels different now

and to the second one…

I am proud of you as well for rising out of that dump called Mango that someone thinks is beneficial for your future…*shudders*  Thank god you got the brains amidst all the puuurttyyy look…lol…Oh yeah…those pics of you and you know who are disgusting…They are tooooo blaaaarrdddyy mushy for my taste and too…ermmm…exposing…eww

Well…this should be in the other blog…

Anyway…f.y.i

this entry is meant for the two idiots that are never far from my thoughts…My sisters…

so the rest of you can skip this sappy crap k…lol