Somethin’ to feed da B.O.R.E.D.O.M

Exams are over…end of my second year as an Arts student in University of Tasmania…waiting to embark on my third year…and the wait is such a bore…despite the fact that it is a very short break…

No money
No job
No life…period

and I ended up browsing through friendster…and I realised that I really miss my friends from JI…Ihave not really been in touch with anyone from JI despite the fact that I spend my best teen years there…

99C…definitely a class filled with characters and personalities…I mean everyone would probably think da same of their own class…but I really had most of my fun during my school years there…Mdm Zarina probably begs to differ..haha…

Another thing that is makin me think…

Friendship needs a lot of care and nourishment for it to be kept alive through times, distances and changes…
Without all these, that friendship tends to become just part of the past…
People change…time and experience part of the factors contributing to that change…
We are rarely the person we first project ourselves to be in the end but is that a good reason enough to neglect people from our past…
I feel guilty of doing just that…
3 of the closest girl friends that I had made in my pre-university days…
Girls whom I had trusted with part of my past life…
Girls whom had been there for me when I needed them before…
Girls whom had given me memories to smile about…

I am moving too fast forward in my life…
I have met and will probably continue to meet great individuals in my life whom I’ll consider as friends…
It’s time to stop for a while and rewind…
Will the wonderful friends I’ve made here end up like my friends from JI?
Lost…in the future…as part of my present then…

It’s kinda hard to believe that it’s happening…
People that I had spend so much time with…
I dunno what they are doin now…
It’s time to rekindle that lost flame…

Reminded me of a childhood poem that was scrawled all over the ‘autograph books’ during my primary school years…

‘Make new friends
Keep the old
One is silver
The other is gold’

I now comprehend how truthful those simple lines are…

Who are we to say what’s right and what’s wrong and what’s good or bad?
Just because a person prays 5 times a day, don’t drink, don’t screw around, don’t do drugs…he/she is good and the person who is doin otherwise is bad…
I am so sick and tired of this mentality…seriously…
It doesn’t mean that a person who wants to change was bad and is tryin to be good…
Whatever the reason for that person’s change is really no one else’s business but his/her own…
Whatever you do in life is really no one else’s personal affairs but yours and yours alone and I believe that nobody is actually really good or bad…I don’t believe in characterising people in such a way…
What is right to you maybe wrong to others…
I take offence when people say that someone change because he or she wants to be good…
What is that supposed to mean?
Was the person bad before the change?
That is one thing that I have been grappling with…especially after being exposed to alot of things I am questioning the views and values that I have been brought up with…principles that I had before has changed…
And again I stress on the fact that I am not saying that we should just throw our values, principles, religion aside…
I am just askin for people to be more sensitive…not everyone thinks like you…

The term groupie as stated in Answers.com…

‘group·ie (grū‘pē)
n. Slang.

1. A fan, especially a young woman, who follows a rock group around on tours.
2. An enthusiastic supporter or follower: a ballet groupie; a fashion groupie.

I know that different people have their own studyin methods but how condusive is it when you have ten people studyin together in one room? Think about it…seriously…and it is even worse when all are close friends cos u can’t turn around and say ‘SHUT DA FUCK UP!’ when someone decides to be annoyin…
Personally…I rather be by myself when I am REALLY studyin or with one or two other people whom I can say ‘Excuse me…I really need some peace and quiet…if u guys dun mind’  Actually I dun really need to do that cos these people would already understand that…especially since I tend to get crankier when I am stressed out…another reason why I study better alone…
I have no problems with people who wants to start a study groupie…but please…count me out ok?
I rather not be following the crowd…individuality is what matters to me…so R.E.S.P.E.C.T that please…

Da first week of exams are almost gone…One more week for me and I will be f.r.e.e…yay!
Recap on all that has happened since da start of study week that started last Monday…

1) Hibernation process began…hardly stepped out of the house…in fact…hardly stepped out of my room
2) Sleepin pattern changes…beginnin to feel like I am a nocturnal creature now…
3) Bad diet starts…instant noodles, snacks, junks etc etc…no time to really cook…
4) Seeing some notes/books etc for the first time this semester…notes had begun to collect dust..
5) My bed has became multi-functional…for sleepin, studyin, eating, day-dreamin…
6) Bedroom has turned into a public study centre…books/notes/laptops strewn all over the place…and I can find people in every corner of my room…haha
7) Dirty laundry piling up…it’s gross…I will wash everythin soon…promise…
Substance abuse…relax…relax…it’s only coffee and fags…
9) Accumulation of rubbish…literally…empty bottles of coke, chocolate wrappers, biscuit wrappers, Mcdonald’s paperbags…u name it…it’s probably there…
10) and finally…Attendin the examination with dead brain despite all the efforts that had been taken to refreshed it…

oh well…

I actually do love exams period tho…It’s hectic…It’s stressful…but…in a way it offers some kind of peace…
like now…
when all the people in my house are already dead either from over-studyin or from havin papers…
it’s all so quiet now…except
for the sounds comin from my laptop…
the buzzin sound from the heater…
and the occasional singin or talkin to self comin from Naz’s room below mine…haha

Ok..peace out people…gotta get my attention back to books now…