Somethin’ to feed da B.O.R.E.D.O.M

Okay…it is 6:46 am, Thursday morning…am done with the exams revision for da day since 4am…my brain’s kinda dead but my eyes are still wide open…I think I overdosed myself with coffee…haha

Most of the uni students I know here are coffee addicts…if it is not on normal semester days, the over consumption of coffee can be seen nearing assignments datelines and exams studyin periods…Those who are unfortunate enuff to be unable to take the strong taste of coffee,for example, one of my ex-housemate, had to resort to caffeine pills to stay awake for midnight oil burning…I do feel a tad sorry for them though cos they dun know what they are missin from not drinkin dis aromatic beverage…

Hobart is not big on coffee chains tho…Comin from a place where coffee chains such as ‘Starbucks’ and ‘Coffee Bean and Tea Leaves’ are household names, it was a bit appallin to find that coffee houses are really limited here…The most popular amongst the Uni students here would be Hudsons and probably for those who hardly step out of the Uni vicinity, Lazenby’s or at the worst, The Refectory…Had my first Latte when my normally it’s hot chocky for me, from Lazenby’s today…ooops…I mean yesterday cos I badly needed something to perk me up…It sucks tho…I guess because it was about to close and the girl was rushin so yeah…My first latte in University…had to dump 5 packets of sugar in it for it to taste somewhat decent…but it’s all gooooddd…it plays a role in the reason why I am still up…haha…that and da other mugs of coffee I had several hours after comin back fr Uni…

Latte, Expresso, Mocha, Cappucino, Vienna but I am contented enough with my plain,old black coffee…prefer Nescafe but since there’s none in my house at the moment, I am happily sippin or more like gulpin down mugs of International Roast…I was a coffee addict but have stopped that and coffee now for me is juz for the above-mentioned events…Now it is back to Milo in the mornings for that extra boost of energy, juz like my childhood and teenhood dayz and tea in the evenings when the weather dictates for somethin to warm and soothin…

I guess lesson learned…gonna tone down on the coffee today…it’s pointless bein wide awake when my brain can’t take anymore torture…Gonna try to sleep or at the most end up starin blankly at the picture of Pitt and Mortensen on the wall opposite of my bed…Maybe I should try countin sheeps…hhhmmm…rite! Gonna stop my nonsensical ramblings now…Cheers!

How much is too much? How long is too long? How deep is too deep?

How important is one thing over another? How do u know that da decision u make is da right decision?

How do u know dat da person is Dat person…?

I guess u juz do…

It’s 8:35am and my tummy is aching like crazy…feel so damn nauseated…my eyes feel like someone juz punched em or I have been bawlin da whole nite…I feel like crap…Monday blues…but
My heart is beatin fast at da thought of Him…I am feelin butterflies in my tummy now…

Oh shit…this should be in my Xanga blog…haiz…its not supposed to be here…haizzzz…

This is juz what I was thinkin about…I have hit da jackpot this time…have definitely fallen deeper than I should and I have been tryin to do all I can to stop it but to no avail…Am so fucked…

Baby, I love you…

Am so bloody sleepy…YAAAAAWWWNNNNZZZ!!! But I have to wait til my steak cooks, take a shower and head out to uni…YYYAAAAAWWNNNNZZ!! Goddd…can’t stop yawning…got a feelin that I am gonna sleep in the library instead of doin somethin productive…like S.T.U.D.Y.I.N! Crap! Exams are juz around the corner….crap…crap….crap…
Actually I know what I wanna bitch about today…hahaha
It is gettin kinda annoyin to hear a guy sayin, ‘I dun c u as a girl’ or ‘I treat you like one of us’ or shits like that….
Hellllooooooooooooo….I AM A GIRL! gODdaMNit! Juz because I dun behave like a bimbo, I dun soothe your fragile egos by bringin myself down so low, I dun carry your balls etc doesn’t mean that I am NOT a girl…I am sorry if I get over sensitive once in a while or jealous…I  mean I am thankful that I have so many guy friends who feels really comfy talkin and jokin around with me…but…still…I am NOT exactly like u…I DO NOT HAVE A DICK! So please…please…please accept the fact that I find some of your jokes to be too hurtin…I can be crude, I can be vulgar, damn! I am open-minded but…Dun blame me if anythin happens ok?

Juz because a gal smokes, drinks, go clubbin…wat-fuckin-ever…she is ‘wild’…she is a slut…she is cheap…bla bla bla…Hey come on! We are not living in the neanderthal period anymore okay? I am not sayin that in da feministic sense…face up to reality ok? The world is movin forward but why are da thinkin of some people still so backwards? I dun fuckin care if u wan to be old-fashioned or wat-fuckin-ever u wan to be but stop bein so fuckin judgemental ok? Its even oh so sad wen dis kind of judgements come from people who are educated n well-travelled…did u study and go around the world with your eyes fuckin close? Tsk tsk so sad…I dun mean that since u r educated and well-travelled or because u r in a foreign land u should be throwin your fuckin culture and religion away…but at least be more accepting that not everyone is like u…respect these differences…U might not approve of what people are doin but u need not pass unnecessary comments that is just wrath incurring and make u look like a such a backward buffoon…Fuck u and u and u…Go and screw yourself…ain’t gonna make myself look so sweet and demure juz because my fuckin society dictates that women r meant to be dat way…Not all women enjoy playin da dumb bimbos juz to soothe some people fuckin fragile egos…